After five months of being broken up with the guy I thought I was going to married, I sit and wonder why I still put myself through the pain of talking to him every day. He claims he would like to get back together, but I think we both are using each other as a security blanket. I mean honestly where does the madness end? Not only do I feel used and abused but I feel as though it is my own fault for putting myself though this. I am playing a fierce game of tug a war with myself. How can I rip my own insides out? I am supposed to be in control of my life. I swore to myself I would never let a man do this to me. I need to take this matter into my own hands, but I dont want to be left with a life of "what ifs"
~ Confused~
